looking for a change but I can’t change.
there’s no one to hear you.
standing at the horizon, the infinite vastness surrounds and drowns me.
a drowning feeling that pulls you under,staring at the edge of the abyss,you wonder how far the drop will be – if it will be a second before the ground meets your lipsor if you will fall for eternity – the absence of feeling, wandering in a daze,hands tug at the edges of the cloudsuntilContinue reading “drowning in an abyss”
drowning in this dark cloud. no way out.
alone, there is no place for me to go. alone, the silence is deafening in this room. alone, the world is black and white. alone, the darkness threatens to swallow me. alone, i am drowning.
i chose my livingshackled myself in expectations. now i am drowning,paying the price,and waiting for someone to save me. or waiting for the day that i save myself.
i wake up with a gasp,drowning drowning drowningmy breaths1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3 it is enoughto just feel your handsin mine. help, help, someone save me,water pressing down,breaths gone, gone, gone, your slow breaths,your arms around my shoulders,your hair tickling my face. someone is dragging me up,my hands are cold,body shaking,Continue reading “drowning in love”
the water is smothering me. I smile, wondering at the foreign feeling on my face. The numbness helps, I decide, as I laugh off their perfect sharp jokes flying towards me, creating a shield of apathy. am i drowning? The chocolate melts on my mouth, but I can’t bring myself to care too much aboutContinue reading “drowning”