We all ache for real love.
It sits in our bones.
We look at the people around us, hearts aching in envy as they pull each other into a kiss. We look back at ourselves, finger our shirts, and wonder why we haven’t found that special person, and why it hurts.
True love is what we really seek. We look for a pure love, an infinite love. Love that waits for no one. Love that consumes everything. Love that lingers in every moment unspoken.
We want to spend morning sitting at coffee shops and gossiping about the barista inside. We want to spend an afternoon at the park, laying in their lap as they wind a strand of the greenest grass through our air. We want to walk hand in hand through an amusement park at night, looking at the glowing signs and the sparkles of laughter around us.
We want that special person to be someone who loves us just as much as we love them. We want to have arguments that get resolved because of laughter. We want to snuggle up with each other during a movie and then have a pillow fight afterwards like we are little kids.
These are the dreams that wind unspoken through every inch and corner of our heart. We may be cynical on the outside, but on the inside we long for something to be ours truly, one who returns our love with as much a fiery passion as we love them.
Sometimes, we look out our window at night, and see the slightest pinprick of a star in the pitch-black darkness. Sometimes we wish on that star to have someone who shares a bond with us, deeper than the ocean itself.
But, instead, we are seated at home, alone, curled up on the couch, and tapping on our phone. The morning of homemade coffee and a small bagel dissipates, and all we are left with is the jealousy that burns through us as we see our friend and their special person interlocked in a picture.
And then we wonder to ourselves if we are unloveable.
Lots of love,
P.S. YOU ARE NOT UNLOVEABLE. EVERY INCH OF YOU IS LOVEABLE. YOU JUST NEED TO WAIT AND FIND THAT SPECIAL PERSON, BUT DON’T SPEND TOO MUCH OF YOUR TIME SITTING STAGNANT FOR THAT PERSON BECAUSE YOUR OWN LIFE HAS GONE TO WASTE. LOVE Y’ALL!!